Leah’s Daughter’s Words

{December 23, 2008}   You Move Me

YES!! And the counsel was very much needed. I just have to be diliberate. Lord, I’m trynna live for You out here. Let my life reflect so. Let You be the only one to move me. Because You do move me, but everybody else is seeming to as well and that’s not cool. Help ya girl to stand firm in ALL things and press forward. I’m literally fighting for my life. You are great & I’m bubbly over You ::smile::


{November 15, 2008}   I Hate Everything About Him/Y-O-U

I’m sure this will be a poem eventually, so how about I just vent it out.

I hate the way you smile. It’s too big and dramatic, don’t nobody wanna see that much teeth, lame-o. I hate the way you joke around, why do you feel the need to be the center of attention? I hate the way you question what’s on my mind. If I wanted a counselor I would seek one out. I hate the way you tell me NO. How dare you tell ME know… ME?? How rude!! I hate the way you push forward, because as far as I am concerned you usually still take two steps behind in my book. I hate the way you dress. The way you talk. Even the way you listen. I just hate it. I especially HATE the way you move on… why oh you…

I said all of this to say, it’s the opposite of how I feel. I love his goofy smile. I love his sillyness, he’s just like me. I love when he wanted to know what was on my mind. I love when he brought me back to reality in not letting me have everything I wanted. I love his style and his tone. I love that he listened (sometimes). But I still HATE that you moved on… why oh you…

{November 14, 2008}   So… What Is A Prostitute??


[pros-ti-toot, -tyoot]  
noun, verb, -tut⋅ed, -tut⋅ing.

1. a woman who engages in sexual intercourse for money; whore; harlot.
2. a man who engages in sexual acts for money.
3. a person who willingly uses his or her talent or ability in a base and unworthy way, usually for money.

–verb (used with object)

4. to sell or offer (oneself) as a prostitute.
5. to put to any base or unworthy use: to prostitute one’s talents.

Believe it or not, this question has been floating in my mind for a little while. What sparked it? A topic a prof brought up a while ago and the fact of the unfortunate route from my house to my church on a regular basis… there is A LOT of prostitution. My hearts breaks when I see them, but then I think about the ones that prostitute out of either ignorance or denial, that broke my heart even more.

Not to give props to the street prostitutes or anything, but at least they made a conscious decision of knowing what it is from the jump, versus those that give themselves away for someone to give them what they really ache for. For those who consider their bodies a small price for someone elses affection or the stroke of their egos. For those that consider their bodies a minute sacrifice for a flawless gift that all their friends would admire or for a warm body by their sides. It breaks my heart.

Most people would assume that I am only referring to women. Nope. Most would assume I am only referring to those having sexual relationships outside of marriage. Nope. It can happen in a marriage in a sense as well… an unhealthy one anyway… Example: Wife gets no love from her husband, is always away and she feels unloved. Instead of addressing that, the husband gets what he wants when he comes home and to “shut her up” brings her jewelry… Now let’s look back to our definition. It breaks my heart…

{November 12, 2008}   True Vital Signs

        So I am reading this book for a paper called Making Peace With Your Teenager and it’s addressing some crucial points. There are some things that are really hitting close to home. In one part they were talking about how parents make certain things “vital” that technically are not.

          To quote them exactly, it says “happiness, success, achievements, friendships, health, and safety are all important areas in our teens’ lives. However at one time or another, every one of our kids will be forced to live without one or all of these. When this happens, the only thing that will be vital is their relationship with Christ. As long as that is intact, they will be OK.”

As will I

{November 12, 2008}   Why Leah’s Daughter?

          Leah, in the Bible was the first wife of Jacob. The short version of that story was that, Jacob actually wanted to marry her younger sister instead… that was the one he “loved” more. But though it doesn’t say it explicitly, I believe that changed. Rachel, the younger sister, was rather childish and did some petty things. Leah’s lack of love from her husband was noticed by God and He blessed her. She gave birth to Jacob’s first son, his only daughter, and most importantly to Judah… the father of the tribe of David, also the bloodline of Christ.

         So again, why Leah’s Daughter? I can see a lot of myself in the life of Leah, and I know that God sees my heart and my hurt and He blesses me…

et cetera