Leah’s Daughter’s Words

{December 30, 2008}   Stretched!!

Dad… help my mind and my heart. Help me to love those that have the ability to irk every pet peeve nerve I possess. Help me to love the judgmental, the over zealous, the over critical, the exceedingly naive, the always negative, the obsessed with image rather than the heart, and/or the grudge holders that treat you like what you did ten years ago was ten seconds ago. I pray that those that I have been any of those things to are interceeding for me. I know my heart can be ugly and dark and it humbles me and sends me running back to You. Thank You for testing my godly patience with these people, but they really get on my nerves every single opportunity they get whether they realize it or not. I can’t change them, but You can change me.

God help!


Give Me Your Eyes by Brandon Heath

This is going to be rough. I hate conflict and whatever is associated with it, but it happens and ya gotta roll with the punches. I think I test a hint of jealousy or something weird with one of my friends in regards to my roommate. Everytime I mention her or show her something we did,I noticed there are “catty” remarks. Even back in September, the play, she goes “it was cool for what it was” aka hatin where I come from… or we watch a video she and I did, and she goes “wow, she mad ghetto” when it’s obvious the girl was joking around and that’s not the way she talks… crap like that which I can no longer brush off like maybe it’s nothing. It’s become too much. And it doesn’t help to know that the crowd she rolls with are professional hatas. And at the end of all of this I still have to love and pray for these niggaz…. and yeah I mean niggaz because they drawlin with that and that’s a big reason I left that church. Character assasination is only the beginning, but then they have breakdowns because they feel so far from God… no sarcasm intended but, I wonder how… It kills me to see these people sometimes because it’s either all fake, so much zeal they miss the point, or straight modern day Pharisees, it’s sad.

So here is my plea. Daddy, please help my heart & mind with the person and question (also my tongue) and also that entire congregation. Show them how real You are. Let them pursue a sincere relationship and not an intellectual one. Let them be fervent in seeking You out in all things. In Jesus Name… Amen

{November 14, 2008}   So… What Is A Prostitute??


[pros-ti-toot, -tyoot]  
noun, verb, -tut⋅ed, -tut⋅ing.

1. a woman who engages in sexual intercourse for money; whore; harlot.
2. a man who engages in sexual acts for money.
3. a person who willingly uses his or her talent or ability in a base and unworthy way, usually for money.

–verb (used with object)

4. to sell or offer (oneself) as a prostitute.
5. to put to any base or unworthy use: to prostitute one’s talents.

Believe it or not, this question has been floating in my mind for a little while. What sparked it? A topic a prof brought up a while ago and the fact of the unfortunate route from my house to my church on a regular basis… there is A LOT of prostitution. My hearts breaks when I see them, but then I think about the ones that prostitute out of either ignorance or denial, that broke my heart even more.

Not to give props to the street prostitutes or anything, but at least they made a conscious decision of knowing what it is from the jump, versus those that give themselves away for someone to give them what they really ache for. For those who consider their bodies a small price for someone elses affection or the stroke of their egos. For those that consider their bodies a minute sacrifice for a flawless gift that all their friends would admire or for a warm body by their sides. It breaks my heart.

Most people would assume that I am only referring to women. Nope. Most would assume I am only referring to those having sexual relationships outside of marriage. Nope. It can happen in a marriage in a sense as well… an unhealthy one anyway… Example: Wife gets no love from her husband, is always away and she feels unloved. Instead of addressing that, the husband gets what he wants when he comes home and to “shut her up” brings her jewelry… Now let’s look back to our definition. It breaks my heart…

{November 12, 2008}   True Vital Signs

        So I am reading this book for a paper called Making Peace With Your Teenager and it’s addressing some crucial points. There are some things that are really hitting close to home. In one part they were talking about how parents make certain things “vital” that technically are not.

          To quote them exactly, it says “happiness, success, achievements, friendships, health, and safety are all important areas in our teens’ lives. However at one time or another, every one of our kids will be forced to live without one or all of these. When this happens, the only thing that will be vital is their relationship with Christ. As long as that is intact, they will be OK.”

As will I

et cetera